I hate who Ive become. I push people away because I dont want to put in effort. Why do it when you can just not care? Its easier not to get hurt that way. When most of the select few in your life that you thought would always be there arent, how can you truly believe the odds are good? When the people you opened your heart to wont even take the time out of their day to respond? But hey isnt that what life is about? Fuck the odds, Im not gonna hold myself back anymore and maybe one day Ill be comfortable enough to say that I trust someone with all of my heart again… maybe